Just a little update on where I’ve been, other than stressing over the fact that I’m trying to find myself a full time job, because I want those benefits, man! Recently I blogged about leaving an interview unsatisfied with my performance. Turns out, I was overthinking it, because I got the part time job!! I’m totally stoked, and after after the fact, I now see that I had nothing to worry about. Talk about an ego boost. But now I’m overthinking the way I’m thinking.
Is it bad that I’m telling myself “see, you had nothing to worry about,” because I got the job, when in that moment when I left the interview, I was totally beating myself down? I know it seems like I’ll never be happy, but I want to be there for myself. I want to be there not only when something good happens, but also when something bad happens. I want to make sure that I can tell myself “you have nothing to worry about,” or “everything is going to be okay,” even when I feel (or it seems) like it’s not going to be, and believe it. Overthinking things can be good or bad. It’s there so I can be dramatic about my life, and practice “the struggle” for when I get my own reality TV show. But honestly, I hope that one day, with my ability to overthink things, I can keep up the confidence in myself to be successful in anything I do.